Yesterday I found out that…
Yesterday I found out that
one of you & I have
the same psychiatrist.
It happened
completely by accident. In fact, I
came in for my last appointment
at
nine-thirty a.m. I had
just dropped off the car
at the mechanic's
so
I had nothing better to do
than to sit & wait
for Dr. B—
I'd rehearsed a little speech
the day before &
picked out a poem I'd
written a long time ago
to read to the
psychiatrist.
It was an old poem
but a good one. It was
about
sexual indiscretions
& immigration
(some of it was implied &
some of it
was written from a
retrospective point of view.
I sat at the busy psychiatrist's
office, when the receptionist
made a call,
"Yes, may I speak with
so & so,
(matter-of-fact
"Can you see Dr. B—
next week?
(named a time
—great!
& I thought that it
really is great
& I thought about friend
ships &
masturbation
& ships in the
harbour
& white Calgary
winter sky
& my fixed car
& lunch (What's
for lunch?
& the calendar
& the book of
gay poetry on
my desk at home
& the restaurants
on Davie St.
& my students
& my thoughts
& my father
& the past
& the people in
Vancouver
& the other
people
& this poem
(not yet
writ
ten
& my
ner
vous
psy
chi
at
ri
st
& the person
I'd shared him
with
&
&
&
& my name was called.
How good to be sane.