year of the cock

To S.G.S.

on my way to see your mother
i find a cornucopia of death
on the highway

                       a doe
                      a crow
                            (say hwæt

    in my mind
    th people on th bus
    they get on and off

                      each womn a treasure
                      of possibility
                      which shall sit next to me

                      which should take me
                      a huß
                              bnd

you
sit next to me
ask for the time

i note that all time
now becomes irredeemable
when i look closely

    at th
           unpainted edge
       of th canvas

                         I ejaculate too soon
                        "marry me
                         & fall back

on riopelle'd curls of pain(t
index meening
a crude & deploy'd

                                                   we
                                                 walk
                                                     at

                                     kew
                                     gardens
                                     then

                               eye
                            notice
                                  th

                  fine
                  texture
                  of

          th
          offset
          grain

th nois
of jpeg
cumpress'n

                  th windjammer now
                  gives a sign &
                  I'm back on th road

on th radio
paul strums the ukulele
paul clutches my index finger

                  paul puts his neck
                  in a noose
                  to knot a humdinger

I take a shovel
& begin
to dig

                   I find
              childhood trauma
              a phallic obsession with th nose

              fear of abandonment
              feeding death
              possession being nine tenths

          a lithographic stone
          upon which to place
          one's face

& pull
imprinting th moment
of surprise when I arrive

                at
                    th
                        house       &